Seasons

He did it again. God that is. Shows up and rocks my world. God is tugging at my heart's strings and He's winning. Big time. There is a lot of things in my life right now that make me more sure of it.

My time at the service center is coming to a close.

I was helping set up for a YL golf tournament at one of the most beautiful golf resorts in Colorado on this beautiful summer morning and it hit me. What am I doing sitting in a cubicle all day? I was not made for graphic design. It's not my passion. It's not one of my spiritual gifts. It's not me. This has been an incredible experience and time. A huge blessing, and answer to prayer. God opened the flood gates for me to be where I am right now and I could not be more grateful. I know I have been where the Lord would have me for 3 years. 3 years! I'm 20 years old and I have had a "real job" for 3 years!

"You know what you want to do" is what I always tell my friends who are confused about what to do with their lives. I'm surrounded by people who do what they're passionate for. I want that. Since the ultimate goal is far from view (which isn't even the ultimate goal of heaven!), it's time to pursue God's purpose for me. God's design and will for my life in this time of being unattached.

In the pit of my stomach, I know it's time. In my heart, I feel the Spirit nudging. This week I'm wearing a rubberband to remind me to listen to God. It's scary. and sometimes I don't want to. Most days I don't want to. But this week, I'm trying. And this week, He's speaking. Last year about this time I had a HUGE revelation and my heart soared. I was freed in new ways. Once again the Lord is whispering and I want to listen. I'm choosing to listen no matter how hard it is to hear and then obey.

So what's next? i have a few things in mind, but for now I'll stick to listening. I'd rather have clear directions before I get in the car.

Thanks Lord for pursuing my heart moment by moment. I love you.