All My Ways

I'm ready to say it.

I'm working two jobs right now.

Gosh, how did this happen? The opportunity to expand my freelance work seems so exciting and invigorating until I realize how many HOURS i'm sitting in front of a computer every day. 10 hour days is not my favorite thing. Is this even what I want?

I happened to agree to a really lengthy freelance job right in the middle of the busiest season of my full-time job. Way to go, Hailey.

So yes, you could say I am overwhelmed. And honestly still struggling to even accept that I am a "working woman" to begin with. It feels pretty suffocating to juggle all of this, and yet somehow I know woman all over the world do the same thing in less than ideal situations.

I don't mean to complain, I just mean to remember this SEASON. That's all it is. A season of my life. I would have never ever thought of myself having a 6 year "career" at age 23. Frankly, I thought I'd have 3-4 kids by now. And even though that still terrifies me to think about, I know this season will pass and that season will arrive swiftly and in a beautifully abrupt way.

All in all, I'm reminded yet again for the 3 millionth time that my plans are feeble compared to the Father's. Even though I'm burned out from "working", I know God sees me and my struggle. Good thing He is familiar with ALL MY WAYS (psalm 139), for that I am very grateful and see the light at the end of the tunnel.