Partly because I hate being cold, so getting through the winter months can be somewhat difficult.
Mostly because it means taking walks.
It means I get to leave work everyday and look forward to the warm breeze on my skin, the warm sun on my face. Holding hands with husband, walking up Corona, the street that continues to become more and more perfect.
And I take deep breaths, I take steps up and down the busted up sidewalk and everything becomes OK. I smell the blooming trees, I hear the kids playing in their yards and the birds declaring summer and assured provision.
Yesterday Brit looked at me during our walk and said "smile". I had forgotten to smile externally when really, internally I was rejoicing. Everything becomes a wash. Work projects aren't lingering, freelance projects can wait, dinner can definitely wait, phone is on the table at home. It's just me, my favorite person and our perfect street.
There's cute puppies barking at us as we walk by, there's seemingly one thousand pregnant ladies trying to induce labor, there's progress being made on old homes which just makes them even more charming and adorable, fences going up, gardens being planted and plenty of old people sitting on their fancy built in porches.
And all of it brings me stillness.
We dream up ideas for our yard and house, I dream of the day I'll take super slow and laborious jogs with a jogger and our first baby snuggled up inside, we smile at neighbors, and of course pick up the inevitable trash that collects from all the foot traffic.
We giggle when we see our cute kitty sitting in the window anxiously awaiting our arrival while secretly hating us for leaving him locked up inside.
We end our walks by sitting on our awesome thrift-store-found swing and watch the sun set. I just sit still as to try to blend in with the rest of nature.
Stillness.
When there's absolutely no breeze, no wind, no rain, no blowing leaves, nothing. Everything is STILL.
It's the most magical moment. I force myself to close my eyes, calm my heart, hold my breath as to not cause a stir.
Still.
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