my struggle

after 11 months and 2 weeks of marriage i'm ready to admit it.

i really dislike cooking.

i've pretended, i've tried. and ultimately

it. plain. stresses. me. out.

when i think about working an 8 hour day and going home to mix a bunch of random ingredients together to make something that will probably taste like dirt, that completely defeats me.

i'm over it quite frankly. i've tried planning meals but then that night comes and tacos is the last thing i want to eat right then, but o wait i have to because the meat will go bad and all the produce will rot.

sometimes i'm tempted to have a baby just so i'm forced to stay home and actually have a substantial amount of time to cook something that may...MAY taste relatively decent.

especially feeding a man. he can eat so much. i could get away with a bowl of oatmeal or a single egg. how am i supposed to cook something with nutritional value when all he wants to eat is meat and cheese?
(nothing against him seriously, he is the most gracious, loving, forgiving, understanding husband on the planet to be able to swallow the crap i stir up and somehow smile and kiss me after ... i really don't mean to leave you hungry, love. really).

but really.
how is this supposed to be fun? i've tried recipes, i've tried seasoning. i've tried fatty meals, healthy meals, easy meals, difficult meals, and the best thing i came up with in this first year!?

turkey stir fry (which is technically a SIDE)
and
pot roast which involves patting pepper on a chunk of meat and turning the crock pot on low.

ZERO skill required.

and crock pot meals ... are you serious? besides pot roast i have yet to find something that tastes good. the only thing i've had out of a crock pot that's worth repeating (besides pot roast) is chocolate lava cake. that's not even a meal.

OH WAIT. i just remembered ONE other meal that i may slightly enjoy making AND eating.
ready?
it's pot pie.

Ok, so let's revisit this blog session.

Hailey can cook 2 things that are edible.

happy anniversary, honey. i hope you like ground turkey with rice and a pie with pees in it.

for the rest of your life.